Grrrr...sometimes don't you hate the way your boyfriend thinks or doesn't think or his attitude towards things?

It's frustrating especially if it is something that you've asked to do and he agrees if he is able to.

For example, just like today, he said he would go to Juicy Tart (because they are having a raffle today) if he got back from he job fair in time (in fact he did). Then when he goes he drives and of course there would be no parking. You would think that he would know not to drive since there would be a lot of people present. Then he goes to say, "Baby, it's ok. It's not like we're going to win anyways. We only have like 4 tickets. Maybe if we had 100 then I would stand there for two hours by myself and waited for the raffle."

And guess freakin' what happens? His names freakin' gets called. I'm so pissed off. There's a reason why I went one more time before the raffle to enter in another chance for the raffle. Why else do u think it's called a raffle? Hmmmm? geeze idk b/c there is a chance that you will win?! I had a good feeling too b/c my bf always wins raffles or wins something. Even my PAL said that she had a feeling that I would win something even though it may be through my bf. Who knows it may have been the one I filled out for him or the one that I put in my name but stated that it allowed him to claim the prize for me since I would not have been able to make it. I could have had a Coach purse. That's besides the fact though. What gets me mad is his attitude about it like how we won't even win before it even happens. Then he actually wins. UGH! It's not funny at all!

If I could've gone, I would've, but it's not like I can claim it since it's under his name.

I'm not naughty =p psh.

Anyways, I guess I'm quite surprised of what happened and I guess of somethings I've done when something that wasn't suppose to happen happened.

After the Lantern Festival, I went to get food and after eating my food I get a phone call, then somehow it lead to me walking over to his place. =p

He really thought I was joking, but as always I never lie. I truly just wanted to see him.

We talked a little, but then somehow (I don't remember how exactly) we were kinda cuddling? I was lying on his chest. Then he would tease me. I will say by tickling and then our faces would get really close. Then nothing happened and basically this happened for a while until we just kissed. And from there, I won't say. =x But I think it's pretty clear =p But I surprised myself and I guess him too b/c I did things I never did before when we were actually together...hahaha...what happened to me? jk.

I did not seduce ya. You know you wanted it to happen. It's a two player game and not one. I'm pretty sure deep inside you already knew something was going to happen.

<3

hehehe you'll probably read this later, my #1 fan =p

Ok so today's incident lead me to remember another thing. Buttttt...I'll describe the incident before telling you what it reminded me of.

Soooo today at work, I decided to finish up that one paperwork thing that I forgot what it's called, I think mainframe? Anyyywayyys that's besides the point. I was working on that and talking to Beom at the same time and I guess  Beom was bored b/c first he like modeled off my water bottle and later my jacket. Pretty funny. Had some good laughs. Buuutttt....I guess he was bored b/c he took my phone next and flipped it open....uhhhh yeah I kinda didn't want ppl to see what I still have on my phone....it's nothing bad like porn or anything....I Promise. I would never lie. Sooo...he opens it and sees my favorite pic of me and Dj.
I was like "wait...nooo..." *Too late* opened. "Yeah...uhhhh..." That's all I could respond.
Beom: "So you're Dj's gf?"
*Surprised look*
Me: " I used to be. You didn't know? I thought like everyone who worked here practically knew"
*Even more surprised and shocked*
Beom: "Nope. Used to be? WHY?!"
*shocked (man his face was yeah. Expression was priceless, lol)*
Me: "Ask him. He broke up with me."
*Shocked x3*
Beom: "Seriously? WHY?"
Me: "Seriously."
Beom: "Seriously?! WHY?!"
Me: "I'm serious. I won't lie to you. I'm not a person who would lie to ya. Ask him. It's complicated...idk...."
Beom: "When did ya'll go out?"
Me: "Decemeber...but only for like 4 weeks."
Beom: "Did he cheat on you?"
*pause*
Me: "Not really....it's complicated...."
Me: "Yeah....so....yeah...I just couldn't bring myself to change the wallpaper on my phone...I'm a sad person."
*End of Conversation*

Yeah, so that was my interesting story. Awwww poor Beom. His expressions with "Why?" I guess he found it really unbelievable that I wasn't the one to break up but the other way around. Sorry to disappoint ya Beom. (Dj, I know you'll eventually read this.)

Soooooo....this brings up a situation on Sunday at Costco with my brother. Basically, he made my phone battery die b/c he called me hiding his caller id. But having the Blackberry Pearl and your battery is very low you can't recieve anymore phone calls or make any. So like when I was trying to prove it to him really fast, he caught a glimpse of my phone's wallpaper and asked to see it again. I tried to hide the pic and he was like, "Mhmmmmm, so what's on your phone? Are ya'll back together?"
Me:"No."
But apparently I couldn't help but smile for some dumb reason b/c it was true. It's just something about my brother interrogating me that makes me smile.
Brother: "Mhmmmm...right.....you're smiling so that means ya'll are back together."
Trying to get serious.
Me:"No we're not..."
(I wish)
Brother: "okk....whatever..."
I wasn't lying though. I really do wish though. Gosh it's going to be 2 month soon. I wonder really how long it takes. B/c even though I'm not intentionally thinking, I'm subconciously thinking of him. But, this is my thing. If it happens, it happens and that would be great. If it doesn't happen, then it doesn't happen. Then I guess we'll just keep playing the friend game or w/e. I guess honestly, it seems like we're back to when we first beccame friends. Only b/c I really do try my best to make it that way. I have to be concious of what I say and actions. UGH! So hard....hmmmm what else did I want to say?

Oh V-Day is coming up. I sometimes wonder/dream of what it would be like if we were still us instead of singles. I'm a sad person, really. But I am a romantic. Or I would like to be anyways, lol.

Oh and I just remembered. So this is for DJ, whenever you read this. Idk when but if you ever. So the answer to your question that night I dropped off stuff and the night before school started about why I still liked you and what I saw in you and why I fell in love with you.

Answer: It's because I saw forever. I believed that it would work out in the long run b/c not only do I miss and think you everyday and every second of the day, and making my heart beat so fast, but you bring joy to my life and the unexpected. I loved your personality, your smile, your laughter, and your tenderness. I just saw in you as if I would spend forever with you. A family and all that good stuff.

So yup I guess that's pretty much my answer. Along those lines. Mmmmk, well 8am class, so going to bed now. G'nite.